Serendiptiy

darn...............

2005-03-23T21:00:00.000-08:00

okie. i'm posted to mjc. its my first choice. a decision made by xy n i. and we both agreed tt we're stuck in this sh*t together. but we miss cjc la!!!! first three mnths does have a strong influence afterall.

BBB!!!!

2005-02-24T22:53:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. i'll definitely miss callin tt nickname of jason. we went to "chouck" after sch on monday to play pool. its the coolest n trendiest place to go tis season!!!! dresscode changes everynow n then. wahaha. it was supposedly sum kinda class outin and yep we went into a keropok frenzy n i declare jiang on par with calissa. after both of them whacked ya, u can feel the stingy feelin lingerin on ur back. friggin pain n so nt funnae at all. please ar ppl, we must start learnin how to whack like them.(i still feel cheated agreein to let her try out on me) wahaha. then tocks suggested we take neoprints cos BBB withdrew. awwww...lookin at the neoprints now... i know i'm really gonna miss these peeps.

todae we crashed sajc. together with mag we pon econs n gp lecture so tt i'll be able to make my singpass n reach sajc in time fer the maths lecture.n i tot cjc was quite run down.. wait till u see sajc. i'm more grateful now. anyway, i was tryin hard to blend in with the crowd n i tink we're really suay lar. they were havin maths test n mag n i happily tried to appear like we're takin out test as well. i was like on the verge of dozin off half the time. nevermind abt tt, we played basketball. (mag's fav sport ever) we heard tt sajc basketball very zai so we appreared like idiots catchin glimpes of them in action standin outside the hall. wahaha. the week is abt to end. ...

the long awaited weekend has finally arrived...

2005-02-19T01:57:00.000-08:00

the week is quite dreadful compared to all the previous weeks. not forgettin to mention e fact that i've been wakin up late n twice i reached sch jus on the dot. quite sucky actually. monday was supposed to be the highlight of the week cos it valentines day and cjc was havin the blood donation drive. thank goodness i managed to get the permission frm my mum last min and i seriously felt good after donatin. wahaha.

is it jus 1t13 or wat. but i'm startin to tink tt although our class is wacky n lame, but i feel darn nice to be part of it.its like magically we jus clicked. wahaha. i bet mag will agree with me...after all i sit beside her.haha.

our class developed a sudden fetish into playin badminton in a small n constrained area-our classroom. wahaha. and i declare that our new class song-------->jessica simpson: i think i'm in love with you. haha... a long story goes behind it. *grins* (CH n Helena) wahaha and have i mentioned that we jus totally love to engage in our girl talks after school, we can jus sit dere n talk till no end eh. jiang better rem to bring the mini mahjong tiles next mon to further spice up our class. wahaha

and i flunk my math! how excitin!!!

happy chinese new year!!!

2005-02-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

okie.. this is gonna be a super long entry since i haven been updatin my blog fer a really long time already.

lets see i shall start by mentionin abt the judo guy tt mag tot was cute. wahahaha.. pls ppl shd have seen her expression when she saw him again...it was priceless. i shall tell her fren lydia n point it out to her the next time she comes to gate crash cjc.(mag better nt whack me fer tis) hahaha.

i flunk my recent geog test and i think i'm gonna fail chinese spellin as well. not tt it matters but the fact that i'm already 16 n i still haven mastered the art of cheatin without gettin caught!!!! that is jus bad. haha.

the chinese new year concert was not tt bad. anybody out there knows the lyrics of the song the odac ppl were singin??? the melody is pretty much stuck in my head. wahaha.. and after tt went back to KC. gosh it felt so nice to be back. haha... it was like another kc gatherin saw many familiar faces. i saw my bestfren nutty nut!! and my sittin buddy claresta!!!!! hahaha... and we did our catchin up at pasta mania at parkway.

all of us were sharin our retarded stories n then we found out tt my class werent the only retarded class tt discussed abt tacky pick-up lines. apparently, ppl frm other jc also touched on tt as well. and we recalled another one n its frm 2002 kc's EMDD-----> do u have a plaster? cos i fell fer ya the moment i saw ya. somewhere along tt line. haha

and ppl frm cjc tot tt liting was me n vice versa. wahaha...is this good or bad?? wahaha..neeway... ppl closer to us better not make the same mistake.

chinese new year feels different this year. my grandparents are goin back to china their ancestor land n dunnoe wat province. not tt many visitin destinations compared to last year. i miss my granpa already!!!! our entire family relatives and all were at the airport at 2 am to send them off. and tis time we took our family photo at the airport instead of my granma's place. wahaha.. and we all looked half asleep in the photos. wahaha. anyway, this explains e fact why i can blog at this hour. usually i'll be visitin till eleven odd at nite.

shall we dance..

2005-01-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. when the weekend arrived, i grabbed hold of the opportunity and fully utilised every day. in other words, it meant loads of catchin up to do. haha.. went out with cocodile.duckie and tang on fri n caught the movie-shall we dance. thou i already detested the lead actor richard gere cos of his role in chicago. i tot he was so charming after watchin tis movie n pretty woman on channel five tt very night. and i'm so thankful tt the entire movie didnt only revolve round j.lo n her butt. neeway, its so nice to have such outings. totally miss it! then on sat after the odac thingy in e day went playin pool again with janice. i'm so friggin used to playin it with her at pp. haha. then i'll see winnie n pris. and mel . maria. anne marie. kc gatherin again.haha. it is almost becomin a routine every sat.(crosses fingers) haha.
back to my class.. i adore super w.o.l.s mag!!! haha. she is entertainin la. and hangin out with txy can really crack ya up. and it seemed like the entire week i have been hangin out with her. after sch run and all. haha. shall disclose her retarded acts next time. this reminds me that all the tests are comin up. dreadful.

INFERNO!!!!!

2005-01-07T22:07:00.000-08:00

wahahaha...INFERNO thats my house for orientation. although we didnt win anything for the awards but i still think we rock lar! and the incendium cheer was so freakin nice !!! got it stuck in my head already..so was ember. and the part when the guys were cross-dressin as girls was simply hilarious. the ij marist stella was ultimate.

the week has been super packed with orientation. waha. my class is 1t13!!! the moment i stepped into class i dreaded the following days to come and i seriously tot of withdrawing. u know the sianz feelin then like its kinda impossible to ever make friends and fit in. surprisingly the games and the dragon boatin did manage to bond us together and dere is definitely much more life than before.and majority of my class peeps turned out to be very wacky ppl after all. *cheers* haha. then we had our cca orientation and we were all goin nuts signin up to 5 ccas n more. pls ar. haha

at the end of the day.. we still expressed our doubts on the bus journey home abt every truly warmin up to cjc. we'll have to see abt tt. haha.neeway, tmr is odac orientation gonna be another exciting day!!!and judo seems like so much fun too!!!!

really miss the old kc. haiz..wonderin how e school orientation was like today??? wanted to head down but the campfire ended pretty late. eunice was tellin me they were busy makin the ncc banner and all. so nostalgic can. missin ya peeps.

a brand new year..new resolutions

2005-01-02T23:27:00.000-08:00

Goals. before u start settin ure goals u have to be specific. what is it u really want? accordin to pastor kong, no plan is greater when it is a callin from God.

Then again..why cant we leave everything to the hands of fate. as a believer of it, i think that no matter what you do,at the end of everything, isnt it all destined?

wahaha.. ignore my insanity and please continue with ure resolutions fer year 2005 :)

have a fantabulous year peeps!!!!

2005-01-01T11:50:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. on new years' eve we were happily eating steamboat at marina south(qian huat live seafood) i think..haha, not to mention how crowded it was.it $12 bucks per person which we thought was really resonable considerin the variety. we went around taking food n yep we're so blur that we mistook pork fer chicken..ask lummy how tt is possible n the guys refused to eat it after it was cooked, claimin it was pork's backside!!!....

the highlight of it was when they decided to get live seafood.prawns n crabs. so unaware of the drama and all the hoohaa that follows..they casually took them out of the white plastic container and started placin them on the hot plate. and the next thing u know u see them wrigglin.strugglin n leapin off it. waha.and accompanied with the screams frm the gurls as usual.haha boy were we creatin a scene. and guys are sadistic creatures. cedric n jian yong were havin so much fun pinnin them down with chopsticks..tokin abt slow death.
crab: u pick ure crabs then send them to the butcher to be cut up,washed and dead before u cook it. but the guys ignorant of this again,placed live crabs with strings bindin them on the table. and they just dumped the entire crab into the soup. the soup is contaminated fer sure.

and what happens after ching n i left to head for p.s is between the two of us. haha

got home n watched rented dvds. cinderalla story is so sweet.but nothin beats serendipity!!! awwwwww.....

i dont wanna be...

2004-12-30T01:32:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. the entire time i was out and i had tis melody of this song stuck in my head.

anyway..played pool again today at parkway with janice..charlotte..winnie..my sis(lion) n yep its so fun bickerin with janice. (so nostalgic) haha..and we were all commentin on janice's new look..and how "pai" she looks now.. but i think she jus wanna be "pai" can. wahaha. we were finally chillin at mac cafe..n not forgettin to mention the no of kcians we bumped into and the retarded reactions.wahaha.

i miss ya dukie aka eunice

ps:i mentioned ya!!!haha

monday blues...

2004-12-27T23:41:00.000-08:00

wahaha..went back to my school to return my ncc uniform. its amazin that partin with it isnt tt difficult as time passed. and watchin the standard of the unit droppin is jus so... haiz....nvm. wahaha.. shall try to have faith in this batch of ncos!!!

wahaha... went to queensway to hunt for shoes n track shoes. wahaha.. and ching was tellin me that oasics rocks but the designs aint that great. and lion was happily complain the whole time cos they didnt have sumthin in pink!

my dad was happily drivin me to see my new school.. havin mixed feelins though.. neeway, we were arguin n i was sayin its at stevens road n he insisted on whitley roads. okey.. so he was right. nvm..gurls are suppose to be bad at directions anyway. wahaha. i dont want school to start!!!!!

2004-12-26T16:37:00.000-08:00

When the music fades
and all has slipped away
and I simply come.
Longing just to be
something thats of worth
that will bless Your heart.

I'll bring You more than a song,
for a song in itself
is not what You have required.
You search much deeper within,
through the way things appear,
Your looking into my heart.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You, its all about You, Jesus.
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
when its all about You, its all about You, Jesus.

King of endless worth,
no one could express
how much you deserve.
Though I'm weak and poor,
all I have is Yours, every single breath!

I'll bring You more than a song,
for a song in itself
is not what You have required.You search much deeper within,
through the way things appear,
Your looking into my heart.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You, its all about You, Jesus.
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
when its all about You, its all about You, Jesus

merry merry x'mas!

2004-12-25T03:17:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. jus reached home but still feelin hyper!!! tot hangin out at orchard was gonna be borin but tis year they were sellin those spray cans containin snow all over the streets. wahaha... but x'mas has never been tis fun!!! you need to be dere to experince the atmosphere!!!

the day cldnt have gotten by any more interestin than it is...

2004-12-24T14:02:00.000-08:00

i'm not gonna start off with wahaha or haha. today is impossible to laugh it off. jie was sayin how "suay" i am. its not as if i misplaced my phone so its not entirely my fault that is it stolen. balme the other party fer bring greedy n inconsiderate n maybe it was my fault for not takin better care..but still!!!! the contacts inside..gosh..wonderin how to get them back....................

duckie is finally 16!

2004-12-23T07:42:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. 22 dec euince's b'dae. we were all tearin while bbq and cursin the cycle of smoke tt kept comin back at us. we're rather pathetic considerin the fact tt our first batch of satays were burnt..chicken wings n wat have ya. waha..and everybody is love sick!!! funny hell. ppl stonin while sittin on the swing n the other party either sympatisin or also stoning together becos she is also love sick!!! wahaha. wassup with us. i affectionately call it the "all gurl-sch syndrome" after dinner(which was fantastic cos its done by us) we took a stroll at the park n had some "serious discussion" wahaha. we cant leave ncc afterall can we??......retards. wahaha...then we headed back fer a movie in the attic... THE UNDERWORLD... wahah..pls relivin the moment. four of us decided to stay over n yep i shun go into the details abt the consequences of makin an impluse decision. wahaha. shall miss such gatherings greatly n where ya'll see a sight of gurls jus stonin fer e sake of stonin. wahah...reminiscin..

white chocolate peppermint ice-blended...

2004-12-20T00:36:00.000-08:00

wahaha...the day went by pretty slowly today. waha..there is tis retarded guy who was at parkway n wondered how to get to the place. so he hopped on a cab only to find the cabby pointin to the buildin sayin tis is paryway! wahaha.. neeway, walked frm parkway to e beach n was jus sittin by the beach chattin. took quite long to figure where coffee bean was. i'm really bad at directions!!! neeway, its such a nice endin to a day eh.thx fer e company eh jianli!!! i'm surprised ppl dun find such laid back activites boring. wahaha.

sunday mornin..how appropriate

2004-12-19T23:48:00.000-08:00

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I needIn darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning

Soakin in the sun...

2004-12-16T23:56:00.000-08:00

wahaha.. we're retarded ppl that we had to take a cab to sentosa. its was kinda borin except fer the pool part. the sun was hidin behind the dark gloomin clouds most of the time. still, it wasnt till we reached eunice's place fer the movie marathon did we realise that we were burnt..tokin abt slow.. wahaha...

we settled ourselves down watchin "into the mirror" some korean horror flick. wahaha..seriously, i still dun really quite get the whole plot behind it. such a baizzare endin.wat the lead guy living in a mirror??? neeway,liting dropped by fer the second movie:troy. and she cut her hair short!!! waha..eunice was complainin how we beared even more resemblance now. wahah. tang wanted to catch a chick flick so we ended up watchin 2 fast 2 furious. it was corny but entertainin nonetheless. and wishin eunice luck fer her results tmr!!!

les Chaemaux

2004-12-15T11:51:00.000-08:00

wahaah...les chaemaux...tts a cocktail bar. and before u peeps start jumpin into conclusion that i'm workin at some sleazy place, let me assure fer e last time, it is NOT. Btw, there are differences between a pub,club and a bar. a pub is where people to sing and there are entertainment fer ya(kinda CHEENA). A club on the other hand is like zouk where ppl go clubbin, drink and dance the nite away n gettin "high". while as the bar is where ppl go to chill after a long tiring day or jus to catch up with their frens. and i work at a bar! is tis clear enough?? wahaha. and its pretty interestin. you get to meet ppl frm the workin age grp n the ppl who frequent the bar are all loaded alrite.. all executives.managers kind.. the bartender is freakin funny and tts prolly one of the reasons fer me to tide thru the long hours.. whaha. i'm so proud of myself!!!

its hard to find a song that bears meanigful lyrics these days...

2004-12-08T22:01:00.000-08:00

SEVEN DAYS WITHOUT YOU
Sitting here counting the hours
Waiting for the sun to kiss the sea
Paralyzed by the fragrance of the flowers
They remind me of you and me

This one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For there's five or six ways through
Seven days without you(repeat)

Making plans just to stop the aching
Chasing thoughts from a million miles away
Hypnotized as another dawn is breaking
I rehearse the words I want to say

This one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
It's seven days without you
Yeah, Seven days with out you(repeat)

And I will find a way until you're home
To let the giant sleep this fire we know is far away cause
There's one love in a lifetime
Until two hearts of a kind

There's three reason you'll me mine
For when five and six are through
It's seven days without you(repeat 2x)

nostalgia...

2004-12-04T01:01:00.000-08:00

wahaha...ages i have to say. jus had the sudden urge to start bloggin again.actually i've given up on it several times.haha...neeway..just went to ma'am zakiah wedding tis afternoon. it was rather pleasent. and boy did ma'am zak look gorgeous. all i remember after tt is that walkin around in heels n running across streets has taken a toll on my poor feet. thx to our indecisive cadets.wahaha... i realise tt everyone goes thru similar phases in life and tt it is nice to know tt u can help someone esp after u've been through it yourself. makes sense?? haha.. getting tired.

ps: i'm so lookin forward to lummy(cocodile) return frm her china trip tmr!!!!

starbucks ice-blended raspberry with whipped cream rocks!!!!

2004-09-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

wahaha... gosh.. i cant believe i sat thru so many hours glued to that chair studyin biology!!!!! haha..my source of motivation- so that my dear mushpan sibling will get them stuck in her head when i'm done helpin her!! wahaha...my throat was dry after readin 6 chp. thanks man!!! did anyone tell ya she rocks!!!! and halfway thru my dearest eunice coincidentally decided to study at starbucks as well. i was overjoyed to see her... i miss ya so much duckie!!!!!haha.. some how or another my eyes were all over the place lookin at the jc students muggin!!! haha... wassup with them being so ..erm..nevermind?? haha..neeway..i realised that its not too bad studyin at starbucks after all. frm eleven plus to seven pm..boy am i proud of myself!! thanks to eunice n her dad fer sendin me home! love ya duckie! neeway...its nice to be back home again!!!! :)

dazed...

2004-09-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

gosh.. i swear the day could have not have gotten by any slower...
erm.. promised my dearest mushpan sibling to help her out with her bio tmr.. and our class just found out today that our ever-loving form teacher Mrs.chua is pregnant!!!! haha... and that our sec three form teacher Mrs. chang will be taking over for now that is..
haha..our class better find some way to adapt to changes fast. one last lap and we'll be done with this year... people hang in dere!!!!! :)

chillin...

2004-09-23T14:13:00.000-07:00

woohoo!!!!! prelims are finally over and before the nearing of the 'o' level start hauntin me.. i guess i should jus take a breather.
lemme see...oh yar i remember now. about me M.I.A alla the time...things arnt exactly the way it seems peep. To dearest lummy- i do miss you alright and of course the rest of u ppl as well. haha..neeway..i shall dwell a little longer about wat happened to lummy. haha..it never struck me that she was the sentimental kind and she just reminded me how blessed i am to have friends like her and on the filp side..how hard it would be when i no longer see the familiar faces i see everyday and have my chance at pokin fun of their bad-hair days...

a tribute to cocodile: when i smell the sea... i tink of you!!!! haha..now you can no longer deny ure love fer me!!! wahaha...i feel such a great sense of acomplishment cos i made lummy so touched she teared..haha.. n i realised tt behind all tt hard core and indifference cover of hers..she will always be my bosom buddy! rock on! :)

fly away

2004-09-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

If you're faced by ridicule
Or feel there's something wrong with you
The way you look or what you do
If you're feeling you're worthless and can't be loved
If you're trapped in solitude
And no one understands you
Or all the pain you're going through
And your heart is breaking more each day

When the world wears you down to the point of surrender, fly away
Just like a dove in a rainstorm finds shelter, fly away
Spread wings of prayer to the wind of salvation and fly away
Spread your wings and fly away

If you feel empty insideIf there's a yearning in your life
And it can't be satisfied
By anything money can buy

When the world wears you down to the point of surrender, fly away
Just like a dove in a rainstorm finds shelter, fly away
Spread wings of prayer to the wind of salvation and fly away
Spread your wings and fly away

rendered me speechless...

2004-08-29T03:33:00.000-07:00

it was utterly amazing how a twist of events can unfold within such a short span of time. Now that i have mentioned this myself, i was wondering if you people have noticed it yourselves? Maybe you have yet to because, ure most probably still too engrossed playing the game of backstabbing,gossiping. Or maybe, you are already too caught up living in a world of your own?

i am not here to judge anyone, nor do i deem myself the most suitable candidate to do so. if anyone should judge, please let it be none other than yourself.

i urge you folks to just stop in your tracks amidst everthing that is happening; just for a day, truly listen to your soul. Picture yourself in a field- you have spent so many of ure ncc life in.
Are the memories flowing back into your vision once again? Can you recall the many sunny and rainy saturdays with the rest of your fellow mates- running across the muddy soil that threathened to bog you down, but even then undaunted,you ran on. And in all those memories, i believe it wasnt dead silence you heard. Whatever happened to the sound of pure joy and laughter? all sixteen-your laughter? that sparkle of innocence in your eyes? the days that you people ran "...wild and free.." are long gone.

When the day is finally over, i fervently hope that all is not forgotten. Wild and free because your strength then was innocence. Now what will you do, if you have been given innocence?Innocence again? The choice is yours. A choice to be made between who you are and who you could be; between how things are and how things should be.

i believe that is it always darkest before dawn. We wondered about the visions of the future and we chose to take the benefit of the doubt. Your part c ncos will always look at you all, and remember that you will and always be, our little wild and free part c cadets...

sometimes you have to lose ureself before u can find ureself again...

2004-08-19T00:00:00.000-07:00

I yearn for the arrival of that day...
I dont know when i started falling for you, but i do know that i fell hard. Being in a state of denial only left me no where, so i have decided that maybe acceptance would be an easier path to indifference. I remember you telling me once that there will just be this person in life you will never forget, and i guess for mine-its just you.
you've seen me faltered and now you're the reason behind my fall. And i ask myself, " why you?" it wasnt until recently someone mentioned this to me-you need no reasons too.

You will always be the first one who ignored my presence. (bet you didnt know that was what drove me wanting to unravel you even more.)
The only one capable of robbing me of my assurance and leaving me not knowin what to do next.

So many questions that are still waiting for an answer, then again maybe ignorance is indeed bliss. Will i regret in time to come should i leave things to the hands of fate?

I guess i was the fool all along. I will try and comfort myself by telling myself that in life, everyone will take turns to play the fool and its simply my turn now.

i am the griever
i am the comforter
i am the escapist
i am the realist
i am the blessed and the cursed

(And i know you'll tell me this one day " it was too wordy so i never bothered to catch a glimpse of what you wrote...")

i am indeed the fool...